randomness and some sadness

i haven't had much to say as of late. But i have been thinking that i should write something the past few days...  hmmm...

i did get a job and the Claire's close by which is awesome. it's a few day's a week for a couple hours at a time, it's not a lot but right now, but i am not in real need of a lot right now. i am just enjoying what i have. my first day was wednesday the 17th. my day at work it's self was good LOOOTS of learning and quick! but my morning was rough... my boy, my fat, well loved, sweet Zues passed away... he lived with my mom, because that was his 4th home and i didn't want to move him again. it took a long time for him to feel safe. we don't know how old he was since he was rescued from a VERY abusive home. he would steal food out of your hand at first since he didn't know when he was going to eat again. my dad couldn't hug any of us girls, because he would bark like crazy, we think that he was abused by a big guy and the lady tried to make him feel safe, that's my thought process. i guess that he was not himself the few days before. he didn't even bark at my grampa, and he always barked at him. always. but he passed away at 8:45 am. and i bawled. i rushed to go say my good bye before work. i always drop my issues at the door for work so you would never guess if there was something wrong...  but i am so sad, i miss him so sooo much... i try to put it out of my mind for rorah.. during the day she doesn't need a saddened mommy. i always put me last... it's probably not healthyfor me... but that has been me my whole life...

i should spoil myself... i need a pick me up...

meh...

good night

my stay at home life

the life of a stay at home mommy is a tough one. i earn no money, and since i have no car, it's even tougher on my mental health. i really only see 2 people regularly (besides rorah) and that's my hunny nick and linda....

this is linda, nick's step mom for all intents and purposes. 

she is a WONDERFUL woman! i mean she let the 3 of us move in with her! but some times she is SO FRUSTRATING!! she would probably out stubborn a mule! and her and her kids fight like anyone else, which makes the environment tough to be in. but i don't say anything because i don't want to upset her and be out of a place to live. although i don't think she would or could do that to rorah. but i hate not having a home to call MINE! i still have a hard time calling this home, but i try for nick. linda has a 8 year old basset hound, and she has had 6-7 litters. she is a sweet girl.

this is Daizy. she moves slow and is surprisingly tolerant of my rorah. but we have been teaching her that you gotta be soo nice! and she rubs daizy and she rests her head back down, but she is still ready to sound her tired, yet resounding boof! which makes rorah jump and laugh! it also does remind her that she wasn't being nice and and wonders away uninterested or maybe thinking that she will be chased.

a new animal has been added, tho i do not know how long he will actually be here... he is a funny smart goof of a naughty kitty.

this is the best shot Daffy would let me get! it's cute! they chase each other around and she'll grab him around the neck and hug with every thing she has! and he will some how get out of it, and they'll do it all again. he likes to get into the cupboard and eat the dried chicken treats in there.

my rorah, the absolute light of my life. is s sadly very prone to ear infections, and she makes it really hard to tell when she actually has one. she is such a happy girl she doesn't let on to the internal pains! i even shut the door on her foot and she was only upset for a few minuets! she makes me want to have 100 more! LOL

i think that is all for tonight.

good night moon