Tuesday, January 18, 2011
ugh!
today i have to go and get mad at my local government center! i've been waiting for FAAAAR too long to get my M.A. for me and rorah... the clinic wants $100 down and i have been able to skim by but this is ridiculous! the state is suppose to take care of AT LEAST my girl... but when i was pregnant with Aurorah they got me on M.A. the same day i applied... but that was in a different county... but why should that make a difference? in my opinion it shouldn't. ugh! i hate the government programs sometimes...
Monday, January 17, 2011
it's been a while
well, like my title says, it's been a few months since I wrote anything down... it doesn't help that the cat killed my power cord... but it's all better now so I am going to try and do this more... it's probably good to try and get things off my mind. even if no one reads it... i HONESTLY don't care... :)
it's Martin Luther King JR. day... 4:35 PM. and i am listening to Arthur, while my girl sucks fingers and holds her Ohbo and watches intently. she is so funny, last night she started saying "aamie" for armie! she tried to put her aamie in her coat, but she was putting in her hood. she was getting so frustrated with her self and all i could do was laugh. she makes even my worst day happy.
i am also 17 weeks and 6 days pregnant! i am due june 21st. i have been feeling movements for about a month. it's a LOT earlier then it was with Aurorah, but that is typical of second pregnancies, from what i understand. :) we are going to find out the gender with this one... i had SOO much fun not knowing with Rorah, but i promised nick that we would know with our second. i'm excited to find out Feb. 3rd, i wonder if it'll be a boy, or a girl... there have been A LOOOOT of boy guesses. some girl guesses, but lots of boys. well what ever it is it's a little bugger! lots of jabbing!
the past few days i haven't been feeling well... Nick thinks that i got a little food poisoning... i don't know, but i'm feeling a tiny better.... it all just sucks... blah! i haven't left the room... much less the bed unless i absolutely have to.. it sucks, yesterday i was trying to do stuff and i got all hot, lightheaded, dizzy... i was obviously NOOT ready to go and do cleaning and what not... ugh.. nick has been so nice and he's been trying to take care of me, and it's been nice :) he also has stepped up with rorah... which has been needed.
i think i am going to lay down with a heating pad on my back...
it's Martin Luther King JR. day... 4:35 PM. and i am listening to Arthur, while my girl sucks fingers and holds her Ohbo and watches intently. she is so funny, last night she started saying "aamie" for armie! she tried to put her aamie in her coat, but she was putting in her hood. she was getting so frustrated with her self and all i could do was laugh. she makes even my worst day happy.
i am also 17 weeks and 6 days pregnant! i am due june 21st. i have been feeling movements for about a month. it's a LOT earlier then it was with Aurorah, but that is typical of second pregnancies, from what i understand. :) we are going to find out the gender with this one... i had SOO much fun not knowing with Rorah, but i promised nick that we would know with our second. i'm excited to find out Feb. 3rd, i wonder if it'll be a boy, or a girl... there have been A LOOOOT of boy guesses. some girl guesses, but lots of boys. well what ever it is it's a little bugger! lots of jabbing!
the past few days i haven't been feeling well... Nick thinks that i got a little food poisoning... i don't know, but i'm feeling a tiny better.... it all just sucks... blah! i haven't left the room... much less the bed unless i absolutely have to.. it sucks, yesterday i was trying to do stuff and i got all hot, lightheaded, dizzy... i was obviously NOOT ready to go and do cleaning and what not... ugh.. nick has been so nice and he's been trying to take care of me, and it's been nice :) he also has stepped up with rorah... which has been needed.
i think i am going to lay down with a heating pad on my back...
Sunday, November 21, 2010
randomness and some sadness
i haven't had much to say as of late. But i have been thinking that i should write something the past few days... hmmm...
i did get a job and the Claire's close by which is awesome. it's a few day's a week for a couple hours at a time, it's not a lot but right now, but i am not in real need of a lot right now. i am just enjoying what i have. my first day was wednesday the 17th. my day at work it's self was good LOOOTS of learning and quick! but my morning was rough... my boy, my fat, well loved, sweet Zues passed away... he lived with my mom, because that was his 4th home and i didn't want to move him again. it took a long time for him to feel safe. we don't know how old he was since he was rescued from a VERY abusive home. he would steal food out of your hand at first since he didn't know when he was going to eat again. my dad couldn't hug any of us girls, because he would bark like crazy, we think that he was abused by a big guy and the lady tried to make him feel safe, that's my thought process. i guess that he was not himself the few days before. he didn't even bark at my grampa, and he always barked at him. always. but he passed away at 8:45 am. and i bawled. i rushed to go say my good bye before work. i always drop my issues at the door for work so you would never guess if there was something wrong... but i am so sad, i miss him so sooo much... i try to put it out of my mind for rorah.. during the day she doesn't need a saddened mommy. i always put me last... it's probably not healthyfor me... but that has been me my whole life...
i should spoil myself... i need a pick me up...
meh...
good night
i did get a job and the Claire's close by which is awesome. it's a few day's a week for a couple hours at a time, it's not a lot but right now, but i am not in real need of a lot right now. i am just enjoying what i have. my first day was wednesday the 17th. my day at work it's self was good LOOOTS of learning and quick! but my morning was rough... my boy, my fat, well loved, sweet Zues passed away... he lived with my mom, because that was his 4th home and i didn't want to move him again. it took a long time for him to feel safe. we don't know how old he was since he was rescued from a VERY abusive home. he would steal food out of your hand at first since he didn't know when he was going to eat again. my dad couldn't hug any of us girls, because he would bark like crazy, we think that he was abused by a big guy and the lady tried to make him feel safe, that's my thought process. i guess that he was not himself the few days before. he didn't even bark at my grampa, and he always barked at him. always. but he passed away at 8:45 am. and i bawled. i rushed to go say my good bye before work. i always drop my issues at the door for work so you would never guess if there was something wrong... but i am so sad, i miss him so sooo much... i try to put it out of my mind for rorah.. during the day she doesn't need a saddened mommy. i always put me last... it's probably not healthyfor me... but that has been me my whole life...
i should spoil myself... i need a pick me up...
meh...
good night
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
my stay at home life
the life of a stay at home mommy is a tough one. i earn no money, and since i have no car, it's even tougher on my mental health. i really only see 2 people regularly (besides rorah) and that's my hunny nick and linda....
this is linda, nick's step mom for all intents and purposes.
she is a WONDERFUL woman! i mean she let the 3 of us move in with her! but some times she is SO FRUSTRATING!! she would probably out stubborn a mule! and her and her kids fight like anyone else, which makes the environment tough to be in. but i don't say anything because i don't want to upset her and be out of a place to live. although i don't think she would or could do that to rorah. but i hate not having a home to call MINE! i still have a hard time calling this home, but i try for nick. linda has a 8 year old basset hound, and she has had 6-7 litters. she is a sweet girl.
this is Daizy. she moves slow and is surprisingly tolerant of my rorah. but we have been teaching her that you gotta be soo nice! and she rubs daizy and she rests her head back down, but she is still ready to sound her tired, yet resounding boof! which makes rorah jump and laugh! it also does remind her that she wasn't being nice and and wonders away uninterested or maybe thinking that she will be chased.
a new animal has been added, tho i do not know how long he will actually be here... he is a funny smart goof of a naughty kitty.
this is the best shot Daffy would let me get! it's cute! they chase each other around and she'll grab him around the neck and hug with every thing she has! and he will some how get out of it, and they'll do it all again. he likes to get into the cupboard and eat the dried chicken treats in there.
my rorah, the absolute light of my life. is s sadly very prone to ear infections, and she makes it really hard to tell when she actually has one. she is such a happy girl she doesn't let on to the internal pains! i even shut the door on her foot and she was only upset for a few minuets! she makes me want to have 100 more! LOL
i think that is all for tonight.
good night moon
Thursday, October 28, 2010
ok... so this is... somethin
alright so my best sistah-friend EVAR told me i should try this... I don't think i have much of a life but, I guess we shall see! i have never blogged, or kept a diary, or anything like this before... so i think that this will be a true challenge for me.
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